“Would you look at that it’s ridiculous!” “Aye” “Imagine cutting the grass like that.” “Ah, know” “That field used to be looked after.” “Ah, know” “They cut it when it’s raining.” “Ah, know” “Now look, a bloody disgrace” “Ah, know” “It’s those kids I’m saying.” "Ah hear you hen.” “Are you listening?” “Aye.” “It’s those... Continue Reading →
Words. There are many words. Words which can be combined in an almost infinite combination. When used together they convey not just meaning but expression, emotion and purpose. Some words can hurt, others heal. Some words can be said quickly, without thought yet their effect can be lasting. Haunting. Words bring opportunity or condemn us.... Continue Reading →
There was once a time where everything I did felt good. Now the things that once brought me joy chip away at my soul leaving me feeling like I am no longer a real person. Imagine how scary it is becoming a ghost when you are still living.
I speak quite freely about my own personal beliefs to those who have the inclination to listen. I don’t believe in preaching my beliefs though as they are intrinsically my own and would likely not be as applicable to others as they are to me. That of course is I suppose the nature of belief.... Continue Reading →
So often in school we say, "When's the next holiday?" While it is lovely having something to look forward to; I find myself thinking lately that if we continually pray for tomorrow to come, we end up losing the present. I don't want to wake up in ten years and pray for it to be... Continue Reading →
I feel trivial. I used to consider myself a specialist in my field. I used to believe that what I did had an impact. Today I spent an hour at work cutting paper and glueing the work of children onto it. Work that will perhaps adorn a wall for the next six weeks before being... Continue Reading →
For the past couple of months, I have been watching RuPaul’s Drag Race All Stars 3 like an addict. There were times where I genuinely hated what I was seeing, there were moments where I wanted nothing more than to walk away from it. Yet every week I found myself drawn back, binging in every... Continue Reading →
Today I feel…I don’t even know. Sometimes I tell people I am fine when really I am anything but. It is a lie but told for the right reasons. Other people don’t need to know that behind the smile, is a world of turmoil. Sometimes I tell myself I am fine when really I am... Continue Reading →
I am scared today. More scared than I was yesterday. A deadline draws nearer, and the closer I get the more the terror sinks in. Making me second guess everything I think, and everything I know. Wanting to offer up unnecessary apologies. Have I made a mistake? Decisions can be unmade just as easily as... Continue Reading →
